Iv been drawing and painting for longer than can remember, a natural and sometimes necessary inclination, and am self taught.
My paintings have mostly been concerned with human and organic forms, the human condition twisting, reaching and evolving out of and beyond their usual and recognizable states and limitations, unrestrained and transitional, body and soul being separate or dislocated entities.
Current Residence: uk
Favourite photographer: Joel Peter Witkin
Favourite cartoon character: saladfingers
Personal Quote: In my dreams I run on all fours
Understanding Narcissistic Personality Disorder
Malignant narcissism is a life-long pattern of traits and behaviors which signify infatuation and obsession with one's self to the exclusion of all others and the egotistic and ruthless pursuit of one's gratification, dominance and ambition.
They require and expect excessive admiration, adulation, attention and affirmation – or, failing that, wish to be feared and to be notorious. Any attention is ‘narcissistic supply’ to them, whether they be loved or hated, any attention upon them is favorable. What the narcissist hates most is to simply be ignored, to turn ones back on a narc is the ultimate insult. ‘Narcissistic supply’ is the psychological fuel they need to function and survive, either by grooming sources by idealizing them and placing them on a pedestal , or by victimizing and bullying those they develop a pathological envy toward. All attention is fuel to the narcissist
The narcissist suffers from persecutory (paranoid) delusions as he or she assumes that everyone else internally operates as vindictively, insidiously, and ruthlessly as they do, and assumes others feel the same about the narcissist and are likely to act similarly against them.
The traits of psychopaths and narcissists overlap, but they both lack a conscience and empathy, -are both unable or unwilling to identify with, acknowledge, or accept the feelings, needs, preferences, priorities, and choices of others, but whereas a psychopath is morally unrestrained because of these psychological deficits to do as they please in pursuit of their own gratification and goals, the narcissist needs, and will orchestrate, revel in, and feed off the pain, misery, and emotional destruction of others that they create around them to psychologically survive and thrive.
The narcissist, having observed and selected their source of supply, will first idealize them, and initially they are made to feel like the most important person in the world as they groom them, lavishing them with praise and flattery, coming across as a wonderful, giving and altruistic person in the process. They will typically target kind, giving, and empathic people who will listen to them and care about them, giving them their vital supply of attention, but when the narcissist exhausts their source of supply, they then devalue that person, with a need to belittle and humiliate them, usually spreading malicious gossip or rumors about them, or they may abandon while leaving a door open to return as a back up supply for the future in 'times of drought'.. They then move onto another source of supply that they have most likely already secured.
They may portray themselves as victims to gain sympathy if they feel this tactic may benefit them, and they will say they have had it tougher and have suffered more than anyone else. A covert narcissist may feign modesty and humility.
Divide and conquer.
Manipulation is what the narcissist does best, it is their true talent which they use extensively. They typically work to isolate their ‘narcissistic supply’ or victim from their friends, family, or co-workers; their ‘support network’. They typically tell tales about others behind their backs to achieve this, misrepresenting things or lying, often to the point where they may believe their own untruths. They often describe their victim as the abuser, the crazy one, or the problem person, getting others to join in the abuse. The narcissist will then confront, challenge their victim, knowing how to push their buttons to get a reaction to prove they are as crazy as the narcissist has already described them as.
Top 3 abuser tactics
..Where false information is presented with the intent of making a victim doubt his or her own memory, perception and sanity. Instances may range simply from the denial by an abuser that previous abusive incidents ever occurred, up to the staging of bizarre events by the abuser with the intention of disorienting the victim.
Malignant narcissism as demonic possession.
The narcissist is an amalgam of lowly negative traits.; they are deceitful, duplicitous they are psychologically, interpersonally, socially, and globally destructive. Habitually divisive and manipulative, they are sly and underhand in their methods and tactics and know how to sidestep and avoid the consequences of their actions. They divide families, friends, couples and co-workers, either to achieve their own goals or simply for the pleasure or sport of it. They tempt, lure, and provoke others into hitherto uncharacteristic behaviours and dark places within themselves. Innately sadistic, they need and feed off the misery, pain, and suffering of others. Full of shame, envy, and contempt, they are uncreative, joyless, humourless, and are contemptuous of the happiness of others. They carry a thick dark energy around with them like a sickness.. They destroy relationships, marriages and lives, and cause suicides.
Worst, and most insidiously destructive of all, narcissists change people.. Their victims being at risk of becoming like the narc, -hateful, rageful, taking to thinking vindictively and viciously from the abuse and treatment they have endured from the narc.
Narcs are empty shells that merely appear human, feeding off the inner light of others that they do not possess themselves. For all intents and purposes malignant narcissism can be viewed as demonic possession, and malignant narcissists may well develop from childhood from an already weak character.
The covert narcissist; youtu.be/-vi6GT8TMm8
11 traits of a narcissistic controller ;youtu.be/PwFMhpK5lqk
shine the light.
Know your enemy;
for past, present or future reference,
for knowledge is power..